Last year was one of the most ridiculous years of my life. I turned 25 last month and a lot has happened-- mostly the feeling of discontent all around. I've had other really hard years but when it rains it pours. I've battled depression, loved hard, gave all, got let down, my dog died, my parents split up, I ruined one of the most important goals of my life because I let things consume me and bring me down and today I cried a lot and thought about all of this a lot and realized that if I do not remedy the situation of my failure to complete my senior thesis ( I graduated instead, but with a different title on my degree) that I would absolutely regret something that is totally and one hundred percent in my power to complete forever. I refuse to live a life of regret. I have been making art for years and I cannot and will not let anyone else affect my peace of mind and success in life. What happened happend. It just did.
My art is riddled with my own personal experiences in life-- what I feel, what happens to me, everything. I tell truths so much it hurts. And I want it in return.
I have a lot of work that needs to be tended to and I intend on doing so. I also intend on continuing this blog because it has always been an outlet for me in a positive way. I give so much of myself away and give so little to myself and that old Jodi is gone. If you don't like it then I don't need you in my life and you certainly don't deserve to be a part of my journey. I'm going places.
So here's what I worked on tonight.
Buona notte.
