get yo fingers licked.

if it were my birthday, i'd just want a massage and some head.
isn't that what everyone wants?

LINES, MANTRAS, REPITITIONS.

 

know that you are woman

and love yourself for that very reason
--even if it's that alone.

when you've been in school for 6 years.....

i like the way my hair smells

after a few days of not washing it.

coffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffee

this is one of the oddest thing's i've seen in a while.

i just...
uh....
hahahahah.
don't get it.

it's fabulous.

i can't go back, and i don't want to.

i was telling someone that i was being sarcastic and usually am...
and he asks why i don't just say what i mean? isn't it much easier to say what you mean?

not everyone wants the truth, sir.
and i guess if you knew me than you'd catch onto my tone.

"i have some friends- they don't know who i am.
so i write quotations around the word friends.
but i have a couple that have always been there for me...."

did i say that i need you?

did i say that i want you?
if i did then i'm a fool, you see.
no one knows this more than me.

realizations through repetitions.

there's something about feeling free when you feel like you don't actually belong.

there's something about me pushing you away or giving up or letting go-- or something-- that makes me think you'll notice me more; makes me more comfortable to say what i want; makes me feel more on your level.

there's something about this time in my life where i am in complete transition and on the verge of total annihilation or being completely stuck.

there's something about wanting to be a part of what is going on here but wanting to start completely over.

there's something about wishing i could stay and see how it goes and also knowing that if anything was ever to happen-- it would have already.

there's also something about knowing all of this and knowing me and knowing that you never know.

Let me be the exception.

“It’s so hard to forget pain, but it’s even harder to remember sweetness.
We have no scar to show for happiness. We learn so little from peace.”

- Chuck Palahniuk 

 

Archie

He is getting too gorgeous.
My nephew ladies and gents...

Look at those baby blues.

Having some bites.

Love Child

Poppa Rauschenberg, I need your wisdom...
Guide me towards a possible solution.
So many thoughts, so many elements, so much more to do.
Help me put it all together.

P.S. I miss you.

i really miss my nightly ritual. :/